Waiting is Hard

It is January 2009 and still no baby. We have been an official "waiting family" for 7 months. I wasn't getting down until I heard that the travel time between getting the picture till you travel has gone from 2 months to 4 months! That is 4 months that I wont be a part of my childs life. I look at her room every day and hope that it will be. I really feel like it will never be, that it is some cruel joke, or it is like the email--you have won the Ethiopian lottery, just send 20,000 and your name, ss# and passport and we will give you a baby. You send the information and nothing happens--it is no fun to wait!